10.20.11It's been ten days since the last time I cut.10.20.11 by HighFlyingSwallows
I'm so proud of myself!
I'm really...really... REALLY trying this time...
I am doing this for the people who care...
The people who I hurt when I do this to myself..
I'm doing this for my younger sister,
No sibling should stand there and watch their older sister
carve into herself and feel absolutely useless.
I'm also doing it for my wonderful friends who have stuck
By my side through all of my breakdowns and emotional bullshit.
But mostly.. I'm doing this for the one person who makes my world go 'round.
I can't hurt him anymore than I have.... He makes me feel like the luckiest girl
In the world...
Just to be able to hold his hand.
And... I'm doing this for myself...
Because I want desperately to just be happy...
To be happy with myself...
I really don't want to cut anymore..
It's been very hard..
The urges and wants are DEFINITELY there..
And they are connected to my brain streams and thoughts 24/7...
But just like a man addicted to m
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